So one stop on my health journey is facing the fact of SKIN. Yes, skin. Never thought about all the skin that would be left over after losing 100 lbs. And keep in mind I still have 50 more to go.
It kinda depresses me. And is kinda gross. And I kinda don't wanna talk about it. But I know that I cant be the only one. Skin. uggg....I wish I could just pinch you and pull you tight and cut off the rest.
Its almost like a reminder. Hey girl......you left me....hanging.....you used to keep me full of pizza and pb and j sandwiches. Ice Cream and Cake. Cookies and Snickers. And don't forget the Doritos! And you stopped all that. And now look at me. Just hanging around. All wrinkled. But I wont let you forget about me. When you get all happy and want to clap your hands, I will be sure to clap your arm pits with you. When you think you are going to do a jumping jack, I'll be there just swaying back and forth. Oh, and you want to do a burpee, sure, don't forget me! I'll be back here just moving all around cheering you on. UGGGG.
And not just my legs, my arms, my belly....its my face too. Yes. The face. The one thing that is hard to hide. I have wrinkles way more than ever. I feel like I have aged so much in the past 2 years. Not by the way I feel but the way I look. And what is this hanging out under my chin?! Really.....was my neck and face that fat! I guess it was.
So until I am able to do something about it, I will try my best to remember what it used to be full of. FAT. And that I have worked so hard to get rid of that. And yes I tone, I do weights all that jazz. But when there is that much fat removed and there was that much skin stretched out, there is very little you can do other than have some plastic surgery. So maybe one day. Maybe I'll even start a skin fund. That sounds nice, right?......or creepy one :)
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
On this long journey to health sometimes the scale gets stuck. It can get discouraging, but I know in my heart I will not give up. I may get down in the dumps a day, maybe 2, maybe a week. But then there is something that nudges me and tells me to keep pressing on. I remind myself why I am doing it. Its not to look good, its not to wear a hot bathing suit ( would never happen anyway lol ), its not to wear tight jeans or short skirts. Its to be a more healthy Amy. Its to live longer to serve the Lord, to raise my child, to love my husband. To take care of my grandmother and mother as they age. To enjoy life with Miles. I want him to hike and bike with me. So its more than just losing "weight", its living LIFE!
One way to not focus on the scale number is to try on a pair of clothes that may not fit just yet. Clothes will always be honest to you. The buttons will scream, the stitching will stretch and beg for mercy. So here is a pair of pants that a friend handed down. I am not focused on the size either. Because they are the same size of the jeans I wear daily and they fit just fine. But as you can see these DO NOT. They are hugging, very tightly may I add, to my problem area. The part that is weighing me down! BUT I am working on it! I am toning and watching my calories and hoping, that come summer time I will slide these pants on with ease and confidence. So pull out maybe something you have not been able to wear, or go check out a consignment shop and pick up something that you can see yourself wearing in 6 months, or ever 3 months. And see the changes.
Hoping to update this post with a side by side of them fitting nicely by spring/summer time!
Goals~ Will be Reached!