Still fighting the fight. Boy does the journey get tiresome. I feel like giving up sometimes. But then I look back at pictures are even my post here and I see that I cant do that! I cant go back to that person.
I am 195 today. Not a big change. But I know I feel better and and much stronger. So its not going to get me down.
I am fighting strong to be 179 by Jan 1st. I really hope I can focus on this and make it real. I know with my birthday coming up, Thanksgiving and Christmas, this is going to be a challenge. But I have to make this real. This has to happen.

Been awhile since I posted! Wow. I started a new fit group on Facebook. If you are reading this and would like join us, please do!
Click here : Carolina Fit Friends Just send a request and I'll be more than happy to add you to our private group.
I love the group on Facebook. Its more interactive than this blog post. I feel like more people are benefiting from it. So come join us!
Well my weight is about the same. Still hadnt got under that 200 mark! Uggg I'm at 202.8! So trying really hard now that life is slowing down and getting more on a schedule. My little man started 3k and I have the mornings to get done what I need to, like this blog! :)
I sign up for another 5k. What am I thinking! Its called the color vibe. Still not a runner. I can job out the whole 5k on the treadmill, which is a big mile stone for me! But as far as doing it outside. Just cant do it. I can do sprints, but mainly its walking.
I started using this awesome app, its called Runkeeper. Its free too. But it really helps me time myself and it maps you out, which I find really cool. So far I can go the same distance 10 mins faster!
So here is to a new start and new changes. My goal till the end of the year, get off 20 lbs. Once I that I will start another new goal.
I am wearing 16 pants too! Well some, depends on who makes them. Seems like I was still in 18s when I last blogged. So ready to get down to 10-12.
OH yea and big news! I was the featured member at my gym this week.
Click here to read My article.

My 1st 5k !

So running is something I wish I could do. I am so not built for it. Short legs and a big caboose! But I can do my fat girl jog! I can do it for almost a mile and half on the treadmill. Which running outside is a different story. I feel like I am going to fall!!
So this past Saturday I sign up to run a 5k for a charity  An orphanage in the Dominican Republic. So not only do I get to use this to set goals to be a better me, I am getting to help others.
My friend Shannon went with me. She turned the big 4 0 this year ( but looks FABULOUS!) and wanted to start running too.
We had made a pack that no matter what the other person could do, we were ok with leaving each other so that we would have our best time.
Well we got to talking! And talking! We talked the whole way!! We did run a little , and I mean a little. But we had some great conversations!
We finished with 47.43 ( I think I got the seconds right). Which I think is just fine for our first 5k.
We are wanting to try for the Color Vibe next and I would love to be able to do the 10k at Cooper River next March. So let the training begin!

Also, my husband got a pic of my backside ( not my good side) and I was surprised! Its not near as big as it used to be, nor as big as I thought. We don't have full length mirrors in the house, so I really never look back there! lol

Almost 100 lbs gone!

Here I am fighting this last 5-7 lbs to be able to reach 2 of my goals. Getting under 200 and losing 100 lbs. Seems like the past few weeks have been a struggle and sometimes I feel like I am comfortable here. Maybe  I'll accept this weight and just hang out. But then I run across an old picture of me and I see how far I have come and I can not give up at this point. I am getting there, I never thought I would be able to do this. Thought I was just destined to be overweight.
Now I have accepted the fact that I will never be SKINNY. Nor do I want to. When I am working out, and  can now see my leg muscles , I love it! I worked for that! Now just to get off that extra weight around them, so others can see!
Well anyway, here are a few pictures of where I am now. I still have a long way to go, got lots of lumps to iron out, but wow its better than its ever been!
 I was trying on new workout clothes. I don't have a full mirror at home, so I use one when I get the chance :)

Bad Combination!

Well I am still here! Been a bad last 2 weeks. I am very sad to say I have gained :( I know, its ok.....we all do......I felt powerless the past couple of weeks. Almost a give up point. I think Ill go back and look through some old pictures to help remind myself where I once was. I'll be glad to share them too.
So as of Monday of this week I was at 218. Not happy! I came off my juice detox and knew I needed to eat CLEAN. Well I went out with some girlfriends and of course didnt make the best decisions. Although I do want to say I didn't make horrible  just not the best for me at that time. Also Hello PMS! What a deadly combination! So for a week, I eat. I still worked out 6 days a week. But again, you CAN NOT exercise away a poor diet. Lesson learned, again.
This week has been much better. I am already down 2 lbs. I am back to drinking my water, eating better and not craving the junk I know I shouldn't eat to begin with!
We all mess up, we all fall off the wagon sometimes. The most important thing is to NOT give up! Learn from our mistakes and move on.
I did learn something from this. I know that when I do reach my goal, and I will, I will have to maintain it! Its not going to be a "hey I'm here lets go grab a burger" . I am going to have to work just as hard to maintain that weight. So this was a little eye opener for me. Now lets move onward!! :)

5 Day Juice Detox

So this is the beginning! Marlaina, me and Tracey gearing up for a week of juicing. See that big green jug Marlaina is holding.....yea its my breakfast, lunch and dinner!!

Day 1 Monday:

Weight: 212

Feeling: Pretty good. Not starving yet.

What am I missing: My morning coffee.


Scripture:  Philippians 4 : 11-13  Thanks to my friend Wanda Brothers
11:  Not that I speak in respect of want for I have learned in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.
12: I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound, every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.
13: I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

I think the hardest thing for me is drinking the warm lemon water in the mornings. I would much rather have my coffee!!
So far so good. I have never been a V8 drinker. So this is all new to me. I have never been a big veggie eater either. Much better these days. So I am taking "shots" through out the day. That way I am not sipping on it and it lingering in my mouth.
My juice was all pre-made the night before by my good friend Marlaina. Its all mixed together and is the same until Wednesday. All organic Kale, Spinach, Celery, Carrots, Tomatoes, Garlic and Ginger.

By the end of the day I felt awful. I felt like I was going to pass out. But not from hunger pains. I couldn't focus, and I had 3 more hours with the 3 yr old. So I had a banana! Afterwards I felt so much better.
So maybe I am not ready for complete juice.



Day 2 Tuesday:

Weight : 210.8

Feeling: Better than I thought I would. Just started getting hungry

What am I missing: Nothing much at the moment.


Scripture:  Luke 11 :17 But he knowing their thoughts, said unto them. Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation and a house divided against a house falleth.

Im using this scripture only to say it would be easy if everyone was doing it together. I know I have to be strong and not rely on others, but if you are able to have your family do this together it would be awesome! Plus this is a great scripture to use for many things!


Day 3 Wednesday:

Weight: 209

Feeling: Pretty good

What am I missing: Really craving a nice piece of salmon and big salad.

Scripture: Matthew 5:6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.

Again thanks to my friend Wanda for posting such great verses each day to help us get through this.
Each time I feel hunger or the need to eat, I am reminding myself that my soul should ache for the Lord just as much. Most of us don't go a day with out eating or drinking. Neither should we go a day without praying and seeking Jesus.

Also at my heart changers meeting last night, my good friend Marlaina made some awesome new juices. So today I am enjoying one called Kale Cleanser. Its Kale, Cucumber, Pineapple and something else. lol
Its much better than what I have been drinking. Also I am getting some fruit today and will be making some sweet yummies.

So later today I was getting hunger pains! My son who never eats wanted to eat today. So that was a challenge. But I didn't not snack on ANYTHING! I didn't put one morsel of food in mouth. Instead I prayed. Each time I got a hunger pain, I took a burden up the Lord. Some where mine and some were others. Starting to really get a grip on the fasting aspect of this and understanding its importance.


Day 4 Thursday:

Weight: 207 , this makes a total loss of 87lbs!!!

Feeling: A little hungry, but not starving like I thought I would

What am I missing: Crunching on something!

Scripture:

Yesterday evening I juiced up enough to get me through the last 2 days! Cant believe its almost over! On the menu today my green juice will be a mixture of Spinach, pineapple,cucumber and apple. This is more spinach  and cucumber than anything. My fruit juices are going to be a pineapple,mango, and cantaloupe. Oh this is so good! And then I have some Carrot, Apple and Ginger juice.
Hoping to get the gym today. I have had cake orders this week and been tied up with those. But I feel like am energized and able. So far this hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be for me. I am already looking forward to another in a few more months.

Day 5

I made it!!!WOW! This was harder than I thought. I want to consider this my practice run and the next time I do it, I will be more ready and knowing what I am getting in to.
I was down to 207 the morning of day 5. But after another 24 hrs I was at 205!!! Whoop whoop!

Count down is on!

12 lbs away, 12 lbs!!!!! I cant believe it! I cant wait to see 199!! I cant wait to get to my goal. Right now it still stands at 150. Maybe when I get there I may see I need to lose another 20 or so. But wow! How far I have come!
And one more thing, I ran my first mile today!!! With energy to keep on , but I didnt because I didnt want to dragging all day lol. Yay me!!